From the month of June, my mother would start nagging about not using hot water for bathing. So on one of the not so particularly hot days at about 8 pm, i would be standing in the bathroom beside a bucket of unheated water contemplating on pouring the first mug of it over my body. After a full 5 minutes of deep thought that usually ended when i realised i had stuff to do after my bath, i would grab the mug and pour the water over myself before i lost the guts for it. The feeling that struck me at that instant and ran at lighting speed across my body was my first encounter with inspiration.
As i grew up, i also found other better ways of getting inspired. Today, i was reading a [pdf]book that was about some guys who had cracked CAT. And it presented me with my moment of truth. Each one of us is good at something in life. We might take years to discover it and some of us may give up the search altogether. I deem it as my fortune that i did find it in college. All through my early years of education, i had no idea of what the next step was. For example, until i was in 10th class, i didn't know that i had to do my intermediate next. Consequentially, when i joined in Engg., i had no idea of what i was "supposed to do" once i completed it.
Some guys started talking about GRE and GATE in 3rd year. I found out what they were and got dejected that this was all life had to offer after everything. And then, one day Roopa mentioned something about our First year English giving her some material to help her with CAT. CAT? now what was that. After getting to know something about, i let it slip to the back of my mind. Later, after discussing it with industry bigwigs of the time, i realised that this was what i had to do. "this was what i had to do" in the sense that i couldn't do anything else. There began my journey.
I joined TIME and gave my first test just like that. The result said that i got 96%ile. 96 looked good to me. And then the centre director told me that that was only the good part. The bad part was that i couldn't attempt only English and get 96. I "had to" attempt other sections and be good at them too. That was my first turning point. To cut a long year short, i ended up with 97.99%ile in the actual exam. However GD,PI and lack of interest [some might call it knowledge] in my Engg. subjects proved to be my downfall.
To put it short, my next years of life were spent being a weathercock turning in whichever direction the wind blew. At the end of 4 such eventful fruitless years spiced with some face off with adversity and spattered with a year of live-in with imbeciles, i realised that i had to find a direction. The only direction i knew was .. .. you guessed it right. So i put my foot down, in this land that is, and started off, on the right track supposedly.
And then somewhere along the way i lost it again. Until today. Given my experiences, What i get easily never interests me. If it is something i have to strive to achieve, i end up savouring it. And now the biggest secret of all revealed. CAT is a marathon. Not a sprint. You have to be good at everything, practise daily, keep a cool head, learn from every small detail and be consistent. Marathons are not won in the last lap, they are won in each lap. If you stumble in one lap, it is ok to keep on going. you can regain your lead in the next one. Seeing all those achievers struggle so much to get where they are, i feel ashamed for being lackadaisical. Some of them spent years coming back in spite of setbacks. And i have become a defeatist after what ? one attempt ! pathetic.
And speak of coincidence. What a day to take a resolve. Today the CAT notification has come out. The countdown has officially started so to speak.
God i asked you for a sign. Thank you. I promise.
As i grew up, i also found other better ways of getting inspired. Today, i was reading a [pdf]book that was about some guys who had cracked CAT. And it presented me with my moment of truth. Each one of us is good at something in life. We might take years to discover it and some of us may give up the search altogether. I deem it as my fortune that i did find it in college. All through my early years of education, i had no idea of what the next step was. For example, until i was in 10th class, i didn't know that i had to do my intermediate next. Consequentially, when i joined in Engg., i had no idea of what i was "supposed to do" once i completed it.
Some guys started talking about GRE and GATE in 3rd year. I found out what they were and got dejected that this was all life had to offer after everything. And then, one day Roopa mentioned something about our First year English giving her some material to help her with CAT. CAT? now what was that. After getting to know something about, i let it slip to the back of my mind. Later, after discussing it with industry bigwigs of the time, i realised that this was what i had to do. "this was what i had to do" in the sense that i couldn't do anything else. There began my journey.
I joined TIME and gave my first test just like that. The result said that i got 96%ile. 96 looked good to me. And then the centre director told me that that was only the good part. The bad part was that i couldn't attempt only English and get 96. I "had to" attempt other sections and be good at them too. That was my first turning point. To cut a long year short, i ended up with 97.99%ile in the actual exam. However GD,PI and lack of interest [some might call it knowledge] in my Engg. subjects proved to be my downfall.
To put it short, my next years of life were spent being a weathercock turning in whichever direction the wind blew. At the end of 4 such eventful fruitless years spiced with some face off with adversity and spattered with a year of live-in with imbeciles, i realised that i had to find a direction. The only direction i knew was .. .. you guessed it right. So i put my foot down, in this land that is, and started off, on the right track supposedly.
And then somewhere along the way i lost it again. Until today. Given my experiences, What i get easily never interests me. If it is something i have to strive to achieve, i end up savouring it. And now the biggest secret of all revealed. CAT is a marathon. Not a sprint. You have to be good at everything, practise daily, keep a cool head, learn from every small detail and be consistent. Marathons are not won in the last lap, they are won in each lap. If you stumble in one lap, it is ok to keep on going. you can regain your lead in the next one. Seeing all those achievers struggle so much to get where they are, i feel ashamed for being lackadaisical. Some of them spent years coming back in spite of setbacks. And i have become a defeatist after what ? one attempt ! pathetic.
And speak of coincidence. What a day to take a resolve. Today the CAT notification has come out. The countdown has officially started so to speak.
paschima ponchi undi ravini mingu asura sandhya okka naadu negga ledu ra
gutaka padani aggi unda sagara eedukunta toorupinta telutundi ra
nisha vilasam entha sepu ra
ushodayanni evaddaapu ra
ragultunna gunde kooda surya gola vantidenu ra
God i asked you for a sign. Thank you. I promise.
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