Sometimes, just sometimes you come to face with a fear that refuses to relent. You know the way out and yet you do not know the way out. You have friends & family to ask advice and seek opinions. But really without even asking you know what each one will tell you. And then you realize that there’s no point in asking. You have all the time in the world and yet that’s not the solution. It keeps on nagging your mind. You eat, sleep, work and make merry and yet you cannot feel complete. Something that could possibly have been overcome becomes despair that starts consuming your mind. No one can recognize your strife and nothing changes on the surface. Inside you do not get one chance of escape from the walls that are closing in. As one last effort you start bidding for time. And then hell takes over.
You start indulging. In things you know will not provide respite. And yet cannot stop. You learn to hate yourself. You lose your passion. From a normal happy person you become a mediocre existing entity. No life. No interests. The change becomes too visible. Friends and family try to intervene. But by then help becomes intrusion. You close your world to everything and everybody. When the shit hits the fan you find your very existence meaningless. You start wondering if the only solution to end this all is to . . .
In the darkest of times, listen to yourself. For answers, search within. Spend time with yourself. If with all your abilities you can conjure up one hope for yourself, you are rescued. One right thought is all it takes to make a comeback. To fight the gangrening despair. To light up your mind and show you the way out. There is always one open door waiting to be discovered. Do all it takes to reach it. Fight for all that’s worth. One chance is all you have. But that one chance is what makes heroes out of men.
You can be your worst enemy.
You can also be your best friend.
All it really takes is belief; in yourself.
And then the whole universe will conspire for you.
Friday, January 11, 2008
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
2007
Post format copied from here.
What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Danced and caught the fancy
Married and divorced Orkut
Jogged regularly for 3 months . . mm, quite regularly . . well, regularly enough,maybe
Fell in love with stocks
Got through the dreaded Visa Interview
did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Never did and never will
did anyone close to you give birth?
Yup. Ragini. Baby Girl.
did anyone close to you die?
Not this year. But it always feels like now . . whenver i think of it.
what would you like to have in 2008 that you didn't have in 2007?
A partner
best things that you ate:
A few dont-know-the-name desserts
Home food
(If drunk qualifies . .)
Bacardi Cranberry
Amul Kool
what date(s) from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory?
Jan 1st - for the partying like never before
May 7th - for the redemption
Nov 1st - Visa
Nov 30th - when Seera cried
what was your biggest achievement of the year?
Leaping without looking [:-(]
what was your biggest failure?
Leaping without looking [:-)]
did you suffer any illness or injury?
Yup. But nothing like amoebiasis. And that very thought is comforting.
what was the best thing you bought?
A shirt that i never used. I do it every year !!
whose behavior merited celebration?
My teammates at office - for all the times, good & bad
whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
(Lost) gang ?
where did most of your money go?
Getting ready for the next year
what did you get really, really, really excited about?
Stocks
what song will always remind you of 2007?
"Yo Baby" from Bhayya
compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner
iii. richer or poorer? If only there was a drawn line
what do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying
what was your favorite TV program?
so you think you can dance - AXN
did you fall in love in 2007?
definetely not
do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope. gave up on hatred
what was your greatest musical discovery?
No lasting stuff this time around
what were your favorite films of this year?
Transformers
what did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Turned 24. Cut the cake, got bumps, gave a party, sucked,the usual
who was the best new person you met?
Raj set the bar so high, i guess it would be impossible for anyone else to even qualify. I wish i could pass on the baton to somebody
who did you miss?
Raj
Gang
tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
Keep walking
quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border lineOf the edge
and where I walk alone
best debaucherous moments of the year:
Jan 1st at SOS
what kept you sane?
Hope
what do you wish you'd done more of?
Risk-taking
what one thing would has made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Courage
********
Amazing what introspection can do. I started this post as fun, but the questions got me thinking seriously. Wish some of you guys benefit picking them up from here.
What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Danced and caught the fancy
Married and divorced Orkut
Jogged regularly for 3 months . . mm, quite regularly . . well, regularly enough,maybe
Fell in love with stocks
Got through the dreaded Visa Interview
did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Never did and never will
did anyone close to you give birth?
Yup. Ragini. Baby Girl.
did anyone close to you die?
Not this year. But it always feels like now . . whenver i think of it.
what would you like to have in 2008 that you didn't have in 2007?
A partner
best things that you ate:
A few dont-know-the-name desserts
Home food
(If drunk qualifies . .)
Bacardi Cranberry
Amul Kool
what date(s) from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory?
Jan 1st - for the partying like never before
May 7th - for the redemption
Nov 1st - Visa
Nov 30th - when Seera cried
what was your biggest achievement of the year?
Leaping without looking [:-(]
what was your biggest failure?
Leaping without looking [:-)]
did you suffer any illness or injury?
Yup. But nothing like amoebiasis. And that very thought is comforting.
what was the best thing you bought?
A shirt that i never used. I do it every year !!
whose behavior merited celebration?
My teammates at office - for all the times, good & bad
whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
(Lost) gang ?
where did most of your money go?
Getting ready for the next year
what did you get really, really, really excited about?
Stocks
what song will always remind you of 2007?
"Yo Baby" from Bhayya
compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner
iii. richer or poorer? If only there was a drawn line
what do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying
what was your favorite TV program?
so you think you can dance - AXN
did you fall in love in 2007?
definetely not
do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope. gave up on hatred
what was your greatest musical discovery?
No lasting stuff this time around
what were your favorite films of this year?
Transformers
what did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Turned 24. Cut the cake, got bumps, gave a party, sucked,the usual
who was the best new person you met?
Raj set the bar so high, i guess it would be impossible for anyone else to even qualify. I wish i could pass on the baton to somebody
who did you miss?
Raj
Gang
tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
Keep walking
quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border lineOf the edge
and where I walk alone
best debaucherous moments of the year:
Jan 1st at SOS
what kept you sane?
Hope
what do you wish you'd done more of?
Risk-taking
what one thing would has made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Courage
********
Amazing what introspection can do. I started this post as fun, but the questions got me thinking seriously. Wish some of you guys benefit picking them up from here.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
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